Whoever said women can have it all must have been on some serious happy pills. That or they found 4 extra hours in a day. When I say this I am referring to a professional career, a spouse, children, and friends. How does someone make all of these a priority and not go insane?
Tonight I heard Tornado list all the people she loves. Mama was last on her list. Behind her daycare provider's husband who she sees occasionally. The Munchkin greatly prefers Daddy put her to sleep. Those two things tell me I am not doing everything I should as a mom. They have amazing people in their lives which I am so greatful for. It still makes me sad that I am missing parts of their life.
I am only working part-time. As a result some of my skills and my confidence had decreased. I have the highest expectations for myself with every case I see and I know I miss things. I also don't spend as much time as I should reading, studying, and keeping up to date with new innovations and technology. This causes worry, maybe I am not doing the best things for my patients. Am I doing everything I cab to be the best doctor I can be.
My husband picks up all of the balls that I drop in the frantic juggle. Laundry, housekeeping, and cooking are all things he does much more than I do. He has a busy job as well but seems to do a much better job of balancing everything. Any alone time we get seems to be spent playing catch up with chores and life details. We are so busy that it is easy to lose touch with one another if we don't work at it.
Life-long friendships and new important friendships aren't to be taken lightly. In order to have these friendships though, it takes time. Where does that time come from? Time with children? Time with husband? Time at work?
Balance is important for life. Finding that balance has to be about priorities. So maybe I don't have time to have it all. What I do have though is pretty amazing and that is really all I need. Sometimes I drop a ball but someone else is there to pick it up. Maybe having it all is exactly that after all.
